Twins Diary (쌍둥이 일기): 1월 2018

2018년 1월 28일 일요일

Jan 28, 2018 Pablo and Hannah's

We were invited for a dinner at Pablo's, from Paul's internal medicine intern group. We found a play set in their backyard and kids loved it!

But it was the moment that Saju wanted to hang on to the monkey bar. I tried to help Saju and picked her up when their dog Stady started barking at me nonstop. I gues she thought I was harming Saju or something? I grew up with dogs around and love them but I got actually scared by one this time; the first time in my whole life! I thought she was going to bite me in any moment. Am I traumatized? I think a little.. 😯

Jan 27, 2018 Happy mom and happy kids

Saju gave me her drawing of three girls smiling in thier colorful dresses. I asked who they are, she said it's mommy on the right, a sister on the left and Saju in the middle.

The other day when I was driving after picking kids up from the school Saju in the backseat asked me, why you don't have sisters or brothers? Why you don't have a brother like daddy? Her question struck me as if my deepest feeling was understood by a foreigner who doesn't speak my language. I just told her, yes, I have sisters. They live in Korea so we can't see each other very often. I love them and I miss them. Thank you for asking that question, honey.

But that's not the end of the story. Yes, that sister in Saju's picture might be one of my biological sisters in Korea but it could be anyone who's there for me at that moment or the one that I'm there for them. With the occasional swale of homesickness I try to remind myself this. Home is where you make it.